…and I’m fightin dirty!
As I spoke of last Friday, this week, I committed to join Tessa on her challenge of a week free of any exercise. I decided to begin on Sunday. Granted I’ve been walking to class and dancing to music in my apartment occasionally (shhhhh haha) but besides that, there’s been no lifting, jogging, plyos, anything.
It’s only been a few days but, it’s been hard man. Really hard.
So far, this challenge has shown me that I was relying on exercise WAAAAAAYYYY too much.
It’s one of the main ways I cope with stress and chaos. It gives me a sense of accomplishment and makes me feel like HELL YA after finishing. It allows me to begin my day with a rush of endorphins.
But I realized that I was beginning to take it to the extreme due to this increase in workload that accompanies the end of the semester. Thanks professors, I love you too.
I was pushing myself balls to the wall every. single. workout. six out of the seven days of the week. On top of walking to classes, I found myself dragging by the end of the day and completely worn out. My knee that used to bug me when I played softball in high school started to hurt again. I was irritable all the time and had a short fuse. Have you ever been so tired that you’re too tired to sleep?? It can be annoying!
In addition to the extreme exercise, I must admit I wasn’t fueling myself properly.
Major dumb moment on my part–I ate the same amount of calories and forgot to consider the fact I was working out on a more intense level….
BOOM KERPOW BANG!!!!! Recipe for disaster…
As a result, my pants have been feeling looser and my arms appear smaller. I don’t own a scale, so I don’t know my weight, but I can see based on my reflection that it’s going down.
No bueno. No bueno at all.
Going without exercise has essentially cut off the vortex of doom I sensed coming. I’m sure some of you guys know the vortex–ED voice likes the weight loss, continue to work out hard, start restricting, losing more, ED voice happy but pushing you more, work out more, etc etc until you crash and burn.
That’s the last thing I want. Relapse is NOT an option.
When I start lifting again next week, I’ve made it a priority to—
- Cut back on intensity
- Go back to focusing on compound lifts and keeping my lifting sessions under an hour
- Increasing my calorie intake
- Listen to my body if I need a rest day
- Limit cardio to JUST walking on campus (being uphill, it’s definitely a workout in itself haha)
Routine: Mark Rippetoe’s Starting Strength Basic lifts, 3x a week, many great reviews
Bulking Meal Plan: Cutting out the oats again has made my stomach/digestion pipes happy campers, so I think I’ll be sticking to more fats and starchy vegetables for energy. Lots of beef, fish, whole eggs, trail mixes, and low sodium jerky too.
I’m super excited to have a plan of action, I think it gives me something to look forward to when my mind is going through WW3.
I’m not gonna stand up here saying “WEEEEEE I’m happy all the time! not working out is super easy! blah blah shishkoomba!!” yeah right. Just within the past days, I’ve had my share of issues about “deserving” a meal just because I didn’t work out. Tessa kind of alluded to the same thing in her post yesterday, so it’s sort of comforting to know I’m not alone.
At times, I wish our minds were like hearing aids or light swithces–just turn them off when they start up with the stinkin thinkin, ya know?
Life is about so much more than a meal or a workout. I keep repeating this to myself in an attempt to shut down those thoughts. Also, I’ve been dealing with stress outside of exercise by immersing myself in hobbies:
- Reading this book for fun which is PHENOMENAL
- Talking to friends or my parents on the phone
- Taking naps
- Praying/reading my Bible
- Cleaning my apartment
- Stalking facebook, your blogs and pinterest
I find that staying busy has helped immensely! That and support.
It’s gonna be an interesting week ahead, but I know it’ll be worth it.
If you read this entire monster post, thank you, you’re fan-freakin-tastic rockstars. I just needed to vent a bit, so thank you thank you thank you for listening
I’d love to hear your thoughts if anyone can relate!
I may be MIA since I have a massive microbiology test on genetics and viruses on Friday and am going home for Easter this weekend, so if I don’t get in a post, I hope you guys have a great rest of the week and a fabulous weekend! <3